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Monday, December 4, 2017 | Monday, December 04, 2017 | 0 comments

السلام عليكم


With the name of Allah the most gracious and most merciful <3

 الحَمْد لله

Hello everyone ! So lets sambung with part 2 babey !! ❤❤

Taknak baca sila tekan pangkah ye.

Okay so yeah. I tak sangka i boleh dapat that school. Yg about 2000++ people mohon , interview. And i sendiri interview cam apa je. Ayat quran satu page tu. Dapat 3 baris je.hahahhahah

Tahpahape kan. 

Pastu dapat ? Takke pelik. 
But bila fikir balik maybe bcuz of time session hafal tu habis. Waktu introduce. 

I was like happy gila sebab the topi i mean benda yg i banyak ckp about fashion.
since part cita cita i said that i would like to be a muslimah fashion designer **inteview in english

So the two panels ( can i called it as panel ? Ahhaha ) nevermind. So they ask me about fashion. So yeah i kindda excited lah wehh !

I like fashion kottt banyaklah benda aku cita
hahaha #confident bercerita
anyway dulu aku confident tinggi weh

Yelah time primary school i lah pengawas. I lah wakil sana sini. I lah pblic speaking i lah story telling i lah player bola baling (( dulu i suka gila bi. Bm i selalu dpt b hoho ))

So , u lah top 3 dalam batch. And u mestilah terkenal among parents and teachers. Sbb with my achievement lah 😝😝

So i didnt expected i dpt this school.
but when the pengumuman keluar. My mom was like crying sbb gembir lah dapat masuk ! And i was like nangis sendiri sbb dpat masuk :")

My kakak like usaha gila sypaya aku pergi skolah tu. Cam pujuk kata. Kat sna ada memanh, berkuda , berenang 

AND YEAH I LIKE ALL OF THE ACTIVITIES LAH! I GILA KOT 3 ACTIVITY TU 💯💯

pastu my mom kata kat sana takkesah nak hafal berapa banyak. So aftee i hear those reason.

I pun. Oklah accept lah masuk
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Allah knows the best
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 But then things happen worst on me
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I am not the old me.
i am not the person  who are known with my achievement.
teachers nor parents recognized me.
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My life was totally different totally.

From sk , smk to that school wearing tudung labuh.

Totally. Different man.

Skolah dulu rapat gila kot dgn laki. I mean i hve my own geng. With laki also.

And mcm hot lah ecewah ahhaha.

So when u go to skolah agama.
theres a thing called ikhtilat 
gahahha so waktu awaaaaaal dulu masuk.
aku memang taktau malu ah

Nak nonjol je hahah.

But then months past by.

Hafazan ranking. I was at the bottom.
everyone dah juz 2 juz 3 yg laju juz 4 . And i was like tak sampai separuh juz 1pun weh that year !

Terukkan ? Because i hold the sentence that my mom said. Sukahati nak hafal ke tak . Memang aku taklah kan.sebab aku lembab orgnya bab menghafal. Then nak dekat akhir tahun. I was like selalu kena phsyco dengan ustaz. Mom nangis my ustaz cakap.

I very senstive when it libat with parents.

Yelah that school prep habis kul 11;30. Tu taktermasuk hw tak siap. Tak iron. Bersihkan diri. Supper. Mau tau kul 12;30 tido awal. Kalau mggu exam lagilag

Hahah kul 2 tido 2;30

Bangun pukul ?

4:30 ?!??!
kena ada kat surau b4 5:15.
okay so jadual time f1 bezaa dgn rumahkan.u tak stable lagi so time tahdir i selalu lah tido.
Back to story hahah
Lepas kena physco


So after that i try my hard lah. Pulun gila lah. But still i tak dapat. Dulu ada akk angkat tasmi. She tried to help me. But still not working. I ada akk usrah very sporting. She tried to help me. But failed also. Haih

Allah truly test me 
He truly loves me ❤

On the same time nak in the end of year. I contact dgn ken. And apa apa masalah cita kat dia.

Hahaha. Aawal tahun i was with someone else yg i taknak cita sbb i benci gila dia. 

I anggap dia kawan boleh diharap. At the end. He become..... icant tell you. (( not ken))

So i met ken . I mean i start contact ken. Because of one pertandingan ni. And i need to contact him. Before this he was with my friend.
but they  dha tak  contact.

Actually i rasa kalau i cakap lebih. I karma lah. Banyakkali dahcanni.

Org cakap ken hensem. And memang aku cam bongkah gila (( i donno istilah i betul ke tak ahah ))

I kata eei hensem apa. Aku takkan suka dia. Takkan contact dia

But at last ?? AHAHAHHA apalah ona
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 Remember i told you i lambat hafazan. 
My ranking was on the bottom.

So boys started to teased me.
and really hurts me.

Then , i started become shy to people.
very low esteem tau.

I cita everything to ken.
ken support me.

( at least ada laki support hahah )

My mom. She never understand me. All she knows that i am pemalas 

It hurst you know. I cried a lot. Alone. Gila tak.

Nasib lah i ada my sister yg give me positive vibes. 
But i didnt cry on show to her lah .
like i said . Alone crying.

Ok where were we ?

Gosh dah  1;08 nantilah sambung boleh. Haha dah malam lah penat heheh byee



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